Pagan Blog Project 2014

Friday, April 11, 2014

H is for High Priestess Morgana

"She is the darkness to your light, the hatred to your love." 

-Merlin-


Morgana has come to be one of the most well known figures in all of Arthurian Legend. Rightly so, she is also one of the most complex, almost overwhelmingly so. The spelling of her name often indicates to which reference to this figure is being used. Morgan, the Welsh sea goddess, Morgana, the Arthurian High Priestess, Morgause, the Breton mention of the Arthurian Legend, and Morrigan or Morrigu, the Triple Crone Goddess. All of these figures have become one, forever linking both the Goddess, and the Arthurian Legends to each other. Celtic legends have been forever changed and shaped by this character. It is Morgana, that the Arthurian Tales speak of though.

Morgana is the daughter of Igraine and Gorlois of Cornwall, and half sister to Arthur. She is sent to a monastery, to become a nun. It is here that legend says Morgana learned the magical arts, rather than that of Christianity. This forever links Morgana to Avalon, as does her name, which means sea. Morgana becomes the link between this life, and the next. In the Arthurian Legends, it is Morgana that takes Arthur to Avalon. Whether she is at odds with Arthur, or the one bringing prosperity to his kingdom, her magical power is steadfast. Morgana is a powerful High Priestess in the Arthurian world, and the legends speak volumes to show her cleverness and devotion to her magic.

In some tales, Morgana is set completely again her brother Arthur. Whether she is caught with one of Arthur's knights by Guinevere, or gives birth to Mordred, the conflict is ever present. In some cases, the challenges presented to Arthur and his Knights only brings prosperity in the end. Part of this overwhelming complex mix of good and bad, no doubt has to do with the Morrigan. Morgana has always been a representation of this Triple Goddess. Whenever Morgana is seen with a raven or crow, this is a good indication of the Goddess aspect. In the Arthurian Legends though, it can be as simple as a name alteration or added title. Apparently, names really do mean something, even back then.

I've spent quite a few posts dedicated to the different aspects of the Morrigan already, but to understand Morgana it's important. The Morrigan is a War Goddess, and brings about war, death, and destruction. While these forces might seem evil or negative, they are also sacred and meaningful. For many, the Morrigan is the representation of the next stage in our existence. Certain aspects of the Morrigan bring comfort to those affected by death. It is important to remember when dealing with the Morrigan that there is a sense of mystery, as it is the nature of the Morrigan. Many fear the Morrigan, but others embrace this Goddess. Within the Arthurian Legends, is a way to deeper understand the Morrigan.

For myself, Morgana is one of the most important figures of the Arthurian Legends. It was the Morrigan that first lead my initial curiosity about Celtic Traditions. The name that I have chosen for myself in magic communities is Morgaine. There is a deep sense of my life being shaped by the Morrigan, and with it then Morgana. As I study more and more of Arthurian characters, none seem to shape women more than Morgana. She's often depicted as dark, mysterious, and overwhelmingly powerful. There could be no greater representation of the Dark Goddess than that, at least not in today's society. To study and talk of Morgana, is almost like that of coming home.

In practice today, Morgana is a source of great mystery. She is not easily understood, but her information is vast. With her presence, comes the transformation that awaits us all. We become shaped by what we do not know, as much as we are shaped by what we do. The raven, the crow, the dark moon, and the night are all a sense of the Morrigan. Through Morgana we come to understand Avalon, or the Other World that awaits us. She is an embodiment of wisdom, power, and cunning, traits that can suit anyone well. In the deepest connection to Morgana, we get a sense of her earlier self. We pour ourselves into the books of ancient wisdom, and learn what we can. We shape our own paths, and our destiny at the end of it.

G is for Grainne Ni Malley

"Somewhere beyond the sea, somewhere waiting for me, my lover stands on golden sands, and watches the ships that go sailing." 

-Beyond the Sea-


Grainne Ni Malley is one of those unique tales found studying Celtic myths and origins. She grew up at a much later time in Celtic history, when King Henry VIII was Lord of Ireland. As the daughter of a chieftain, Grainne was also educated. Upon adulthood, she would marry twice in her lifetime. These marriages produced her at least four children. Grainne grew to be quite wealthy, both through her family inheritances and her first husband's death. At first glance, she appears almost forgettable, and perhaps she would be if her family had not been seafarers. For Grainne Ni Malley would become one of the most famous pirates of her time. Legends abound, as can only be expected with female pirates. 

As a young girl, Grainne was no stranger to ships, and the trading business along with it. Legend says that it was while she was still young, that she asked to join her father on his fleet. It wasn't until her first husband's death though, that legends of piracy started. Grainne was accused of imposing taxes on passing ships, any resistance was rumored to met with violence. This continued until Grainne returned to Clare Island, where she recruited men, and began transporting mercenaries between Ireland and Scotland. Along the way, she'd stop to loot outlying islands. Altogether, Grainne was a wealthy woman by the time she met the Lord Deputy of Ireland. Rumor states, that she made quite an impression, and a favorable one. 

The most legendary event about Grainne however, is her meeting with Queen Elizabeth I. Two of Grainne's sons, and her brother, had been taken captive by the English. Upon their meeting, Grainne was said to wear a fine gown, and refused to bow to Queen Elizabeth I. This was because Grainne refused to view Ireland as England's territory, and with it Queen Elizabeth's power. Rumors also indicate that Grainne concealed a dagger, though only for her own protection. During the meeting it was discovered, removed, but hadn't phased the Queen. The two struck an agreement, which would later turn out to be useless. Both Grainne and Elizabeth would later go on to die about ten years later. 

When I first started out researching about the Celtic origins of Paganism, I never thought it'd lead to piracy. There's almost that initial instinct to forget how connected Ireland is to the sea. Much of its culture is shaped and dedicated to those seafaring roots. For women, Grainne is one of many strong examples of powerful women that make up Celtic history. Grainne's views were more than likely not Pagan at all, and were most likely Christian. Her influence though within the Celtic culture now, makes her religion unimportant. She's become a symbol, a legend, and a figure for what women can strive for. Grainne was wealthy, educated, and made an important name for herself. 

There's a bit of a surprise that Ireland had pirates, but it shows the vastness and diversity of a single culture. Paganism very much so embraces that same sense of surprise repeatedly. The Goddess and God take forms that are new and unfamiliar to us. Discovering them can be as rewarding as the information that we come to learn as well. As we study our roots, whether Pagan, ancestral, or culturally, we come to realize a sense of unity. At times our histories can seem unconnected, and the links broken. Grainne is one of those examples that links our history. She grew up in a time where England and Ireland not only met, but clashed. Like so many people of that time period too, she did something to support her own views. 

Today, for many Pagans, Grainne has come to symbolize the divine feminine power within each of us. She acts as a source for us to give back to our country. In general, Grainne has come to share many attribute with the Goddess herself. Interestly, Grainne gives us all an opportunity to work with her symbols in ritual. The Jolly Roger would otherwise never make into many of our rituals. For those who may find that strange, the chalice is also another representation of Grainne. Her very name actually is a form of grace, which can be a strong connection for those today who share in that same name. Whether she is a symbol of power, or worshipped as herself, Grainne is a wonderful source to include in magical workings. 

Friday, March 28, 2014

G is for Galahad

"I have given all of my life to the search for truth. My vision may sometimes show more than I can understand, but I offer to share the clarity and insight with which I was born."

-The Camelot Oracle-


Galahad is a person of great mystery, as he is in a sense, everywhere throughout the tales of King Arthur. All that takes place, is shaped for Galahad. Many of the characters from previous posts are united, with Galahad being the uniting force. Galahad at first though, can come across as distant, stern, and lacking any true emotion. This is not the case of who Galahad really is though. After learning of his upbringing, his trials, and his struggle, one can understand Galahad truly. Most people know the basics of Galahad, that he is the one who finds the grail. It is that one act that defines Galahad, but there is still much more to know. Today, many have come to see Galahad's character as a liking to Christ. This was perhaps done intentionally within the medieval time period. The audience would have accepted such a character, but Galahad is more than just a character. He is a source of spiritual and daily insight. 

The birth of Galahad is not a happy one, its actually quite sad. Elaine of Carbonek, King Pelles' daughter, is madly in love with Lancelot. Being in love with another though, Lancelot would never betray his love. It is King Pelles, wanting only the best knight, who furthers Galahad's birth. Tricked into thinking Elaine is actually Guenievre, Lancelot sleeps with her. When he discovers this mistake, Lancelot almost kills Elaine. Thankfully, she is now pregnant, and Lancelot quickly spares her life. He wants nothing to do with her, or her child however. Elaine is left alone, and the only parent that Galahad knows throughout his childhood. In fact, Galahad grows up in a nunnery, in the care of a great aunt. He is given his father's given name, and so Galahad grew up waiting for his quest to begin. 

When he reaches adulthood, Lancelot comes back for Galahad. At once, he is knighted, and welcomed at Camelot. To the surprise of King Arthur, Galahad is able to sit at the seat reserved for the one who finds the grail. All others who wished to attain that spot, had died on the spot. Upon seeing this as a good omen, Galahad is taken to pull a sword from the stone. The sword is meant only for the greatest knight, which Arthur soon proclaims him to be. Shortly after this, the vision of the grail is seen at Camelot, and Galahad begins the quest for which he was born. Joined by Bors and Perceval, the knights led to Dindrane, Perceval's sister. It is she who gives Galahad the necessary tools to find the grail. When Galahad does find the grail, he asks to die at the time of his choosing. It is said that Galahad was later taken to heaven, at a time of his choosing. 

The legend says that Galahad was visited by Joseph of Arimathea, on his way back to Camelot. Galahad is actually believed to have been related to Joseph of Arimathea, through Galahad's grandfather, King Pelles. This is significant because it is believed that Joseph of Arimathea was the first original keeper of the grail. For Galahad, this was no doubt a sacred moment. Legend says that Galahad was so awe struck, so captivated by the sacred moment, that he asked to die. Accordingly, he said goodbye to his two companions, Bors and Perceval, and was taken to heaven by angels. Galahad's body is said to be buried in the sacred town of Sarras, next to the body of Dindrane. For many, the two have come to represent both the male and female aspects of the grail. 

In ritual today, Galahad has many faces. He is hard to work with, as his nature makes him appear unsympathetic. This though, makes Galahad a representation of otherworldliness. There is a trustworthy and generous side that only Galahad can real to us. As is shown throughout his whole life, Galahad is also a keeper of visions. All his life he knew of his purpose, and simply sought it out without end. If one finds the world too confusing, Galahad can also serve as a guide. He brings great clarity and focus, and undoubtedly that is a source of his true strength. For Christians of the time, he represented also a holiness. As the one who found the grail, he serves as a reminder that what we seek we will eventually find. In magic this is a critical belief, and is a good reminder to have. 

Whether one chooses to identify with Galahad in his childhood, or his adulthood, Galahad is surprisingly relatable. In today's world, where so many come from broken families, Galahad seems aspiring. He was able to keep his goal, and achieve it above all else. Despite the hardships, he remained spiritually sacred to all who met him. As with many of the grail characters, Galahad is both a Pagan symbol and a Christian one. He can be likened to Christ, or seen to stand on his own. Galahad is by far one of the most important characters throughout the Arthurian Legends, and yet, we know so little about him. His character was almost an afterthought, and not added to the tale until years later. Perhaps, it shows, just how much of an impact Galahad's nature truly has in the end. 

Friday, March 21, 2014

F is for Fionn MacCumhal

"All Eire does tremble to the beat of the steads, the wild, fearless ghosts charging forth as they heed, the spectral call of the ancients, and then, "Ride to victory!" cry out Fionn's warrior men." 

-Morina Carol O'Reilly- 


Fionn MacCumhal is a both a legend and a god of Ireland. This fact is strange, only because he has Scottish origins as well. As a god and warrior, the legends of Fionn are vast, almost as great as King Arthur. One of the more famous tales, is that of Fionn acquiring vast knowledge and wisdom. This he did, after burning himself on the Salmon of Knowledge. Having acquired such knowledge in his childhood, Fionn seemed destined for great things early on. He was the child of the Fianna leader, son of Murna of the White neck and Cumhal. One day, he would take over the leadership of the Fianna. As a leader of this group of warriors, the tales of Fionn MacCumhal are too numerous to count.

One legend of Fionn is shortly after he acquires his vast knowledge. He acquires a bit of foresight, and is able to tell how to defeat a coming giant. This giant's size is not startling to Fionn in the least. In some legends, Fionn is a giant himself. In this tale, his nature is a bit unknown, but one thing is for certain, he defeats the giant. Hiding and disguised as his own child, Fionn's teeth fascinate the giant. When the giant tests the strength of such teeth, Fionn bites off the giant's finger. This shrinks the giant to that of human size, and sends him running off into the surrounding lands. As with many stories of Celtic legend, Fionn's victory is not out of sheer brute force. The victory is won by an intelligence, which can only expected from one who has acquired Fionn's knowledge.

Perhaps the most famous legend of all however, is Fionn's driving away of snakes. It is Fionn, not St. Patrick, that is said to have driven the snakes from Ireland. This creates a bit of astonishment, because snakes represent the Druidic power. Legend says though, that he destroyed the snakes only when they rose up and threatened to eat the island's food supply. Such a legend seems strange to us now, especially after hearing that of St. Patrick. Snakes however, also represent a feminine power. This legend could very well be the first that captures the dismantling of feminine power within Ireland. Either way, whether it is St. Patrick or Fionn MacCumhal, you've no doubt heard the legend before. Perhaps this is only another example of growing legends, both new and old.

In my practice today, Fionn remains ever present. He is a sleeping god, like that of King Arthur. Legend has it, that he lived over two hundred years. His vast knowledge acquired in childhood, was advanced with over two hundred years of life. For many following an Irish based tradition, it is only right to honor Fionn's memory at Yule. He represents wisdom, creation, and of course protection. His nature is more than that though, as Fionn continues to be a warrior. As a warrior, Fionn can help conquer enemies, no matter their nature. Because of this, he can become a source of strength and pride. Fionn is a vision of what makes a leader great, both the acquirement of knowledge and strength. For some, Fionn can also help with arts of divination, a fine god to have in any practice.

This last week was St. Patrick's Day weekend, and partying soon ensued. For many, it was a time to drink and be merry. There is nothing wrong with this, as the day has come to be a celebration of Irish heritage here in the United States. I understand this well, as that includes my own family. For me though, there were no drinks to be had. Instead, there were bagpipes to listen to, tales to be told, and knowledge to be gained. There's something haunting about hearing the songs long passed on. Some of these songs, even hint at the vastness of Celtic myths. For me, St. Patrick's day could have passed unnoticed, save for the sea of green colored shirts. This was exciting, for the moment at least, people wanted to share in the traditions. People wanted to be part of the Celtic world, if only for an hour or a day.

While Fionn MacCumhal may not be as infamous as St. Patrick, I cannot help but think of the two together. In my mind, buried deep within, is the realization that the two remain linked. Perhaps both legends have a bit of truth to their origins. Long ago people thought the snakes driven from Ireland, but today, that is not the case. However, the snakes had to go somewhere, and many, like my family, traveled to the United States. The Druidic culture and legends followed them here, though probably unknowingly so. Today, I still hear the same tales as no doubt my ancestors told. The tale has changed a bit, but I have come to know the name of Fionn MacCumhal. Many no doubt have, but some still have not. Perhaps one day, maybe even St. Patrick's Day, they'll come to hear the stories of his famous adventures and knowledge.  

Friday, March 14, 2014

F is for Fisher King Pelles

"I have known the weight of suffering and woundedness for most of my life and have learned much through this.I bring the wisdom of suffering and the hope of restoration that attends all men in such situations."

-The Camelot Oracle-


King Pelles isn't as complex as some of the previous characters have been. What he is though, is a King with many faces. In fact, many people wonder if Pelles is really four characters combined into one. As the test of time advances though, his character has reflected many events. King Pelles is not a grand King, even though he is a keeper of the grail. Such a noteworthy, and sacred thing, for such a broken King as King Pelles. While the many different natures and events of King Pelles shine forth knowledge, none are more significant than his love of fishing. It is this one moment, this one characteristic, that has given him a distinct name amongst all of the Arthurian Tales. 

King Pelles is at first, wounded by the Lance of Longinus. This lance is, in a sense, cursed. Only the grail winner, wielding the same lance, can heal the wound of King Pelles. The kingdom, as a result of the seemingly permanent wound, suffers. It was believed that only a whole king could be kind, and King Pelles' lands became desolate. This wasteland earned King Pelles a new name, the Maimed King. It wasn't long before the only comfort he felt, came from a small fishing boat. This love and comfort of fishing, earned the Maimed King a fonder name. The Fisher King was born in that moment, only waiting for the day that he could be healed by the grail winner.

Soon, King Pelles became tired of waiting for the grail winner. Pelles recognized in Lancelot, the qualities of a grail winner. When Pelles' daughter, Elaine, fell in love for Lancelot, the future became clear. The King approved of the magic used to bring about Galahad's birth, though could never produce that magic himself. As the story goes, Galahad would become the true grail winner. In a sense, King Pelles, is the head of the grail family. His kingdom becomes restored, only when Galahad has wielded the Lance of Longinus. While the land became whole again, King Pelles, was never the same king. He retired to a monastery, choosing to become, in his final moments, a holy man.

While the tales of King Arthur are mixed with Paganism and Christianity, it is Christianity that shines through in King Pelles. He is the original "fisher of men" of the time period. This parallel is painstakingly obvious, even for those who know little about Christianity. While King Pelles approved of magic, he could, himself, not perform it. There is the slight hint of a blending of religions in that statement. The fact that King Pelles retires to a monastery and becomes a holy man, is also intriguing. He does not stay a prosperous king, despite being repaired physically. In a way, he is made new, and becomes a new creature. Such reflections of the Christian faith, make King Pelles, an oddly Christian figure within the Arthurian Tales.

In magic, King Pelles can be seen as a guide to comfort the sorrowful. He knows the pain of physical inability, yet hopes for the day he is restored.  The time he spends maimed, has taught him to be restful. He knows now the ways to enjoy life, though in quite solitude. The spirit rests, and finds its own comfort, especially if one seeks out King Pelles' guidance. At times, King Pelles can simply be a direct link to the act of fishing. The comfort of fishing is real for many people, including those walking a Pagan path. The Fisher King stands as a welcoming figure, to the secrets of a small boat and a fishing pole. For those brave enough to try, silence can be a welcomed comfort.

Whether one sees King Pelles as a generally Pagan or Christian figure, he remains with many faces. He is the Maimed King, who can be made whole again. There is also the Fisher King, a king lost of his grandeur, and finding comfort in a small fishing boat. He is the grandfather of Galahad, father of Elaine, and head of a the grail family. A retired king turned holy man, or a king still left to be maimed of his kingdom. In the end, King Pelles is a kind, gentle, and wise figure. We could all do well to learn his lessons, and to seek comfort in the silence of that small fishing boat. At times, we need to quite our daily lives, and hear the small waves of the water. We need to feel the warmth of the sun on our back, and know one day, we will be restored again and made completely new. 

Sunday, March 9, 2014

E is for Epona

"A horse is the projection of people's dreams about themselves - strong, powerful, beautiful, and it has the capability of giving us escape from our mundane existence."

-Pam Brown-


Epona is a Celtic Goddess, and seen as a protector of horses. Her name actually means "on horse," which hints directly to her meaning. Though Epona is a Celtic Goddess, her worship quickly spread to many different areas. In a way, she was a popular Goddess, probably due to her link to travel. Of course, when this happens, many cultures interpret the Goddess in a different way. Because of this, Epona is also known as Rhiannon and Macha. Each name brought with it a different aspect, a different culture, and different depictions. Today, this leaves worshipping Epona open to a few different areas. Some worship Epona specifically as a horse goddess, while others see her as a protector of all animals. 

 Getting to know Epona as Macha is a little difficult. Macha's name itself means plain, or field. This connects Macha to the fertility of the land. Much like Epona, Macha captures a link with fertility. Unlike Epona though, Macha also represents an aspect of battle. She is a Warrior Goddess, and it is this part of her that spread her fame in Rome. During battle, Epona was said to protect the horse and its rider. The Celts strongly placed their battles success then on Epona. It wasn't long before her fame spread through Rome, and both Epona and Macha became known under a different name altogether. A good way to tell the difference between Macha and Epona though, is the animal. Macha is often linked with crows, while Epona is still strongly linked to the horse.

Rhiannon is another Goddess that became popular in Rome. The name actually means Great Queen, and shows the high regard in which she was worshipped. The link between Macha and Epona, in my opinion, are more balanced in Rhiannon. For, she is a link to the Otherworld. It is her horse that is said to accompany a soul to the Otherworld. There is a great love in Rhiannon, and she can bring comfort to the grieving. Still, she carries with her the fertility of Epona. Rhiannon is also said to be the wrongly accused wife, and can bring comfort to the wronged. With the common link to fertility, she is also a mother figure. Out of all the names, and ways to see Epona, it is Rhiannon that can sometimes wear the most faces. 

The popularity of Epona today, is often found in her link to horses. She speaks to many people who still find that strong bond to a special horse. Still, the animal involved doesn't always have to be a horse. In some practices, Epona is seen merely as a protector of animals. Her love becomes common among animal lovers, as her powers are invoked to protect their beloved pet. One doesn't have to initially have a bond to horses, but merely their representations, in order to feel that bond to Epona. To date, she is one of the more popular Celtic Goddess out there today. Anyone who practices within Celtic circles will no doubt find a friend who in some way, connects to the Goddess Epona. 

My own connection to Epona though, comes in her comforting form. Through my grief, I'm reminded of the mothering comfort one can bring. Epona represents both fertility, but also the death that's a part of life. At times, the freedom finally comes in the freedom of the spirit from the body. This is not an easy journey, but one that we all will someday take. For those left behind at the moment, Epona will remain by our side. As she comforted the soul along its journey, she will comfort those left here behind. While the grief is still so fresh for me, I cannot help but find a bit of comfort in that fact. When any God/dess makes themselves known, it is sometimes not the easiest way to get acquainted with them. 

Whatever name one knows Epona, one can simply know her as the Great Mare. Her loving nature, freedom in life, and comfort to the grieving, will continue to speak out. In Paganism, it isn't always about the deep connections to the God/desses initially formed. At times, it's about getting to know just another piece of the great force that drives our lives. As these God/desses transcended cultures, so too does our recognition of them. The bonds we form are not always strong, but the bond is a necessary one. Epona is a Goddess that can be many things for many people. It is no wonder her popularity has only grown since the time of the Celts. Today, Epona remains a reminder of just how much life can be mixed with death. 





E is for Elaine of Carbonek

"I have known both the joy of motherhood and the pains of loss, I can look deeply into your heart's gravest ills and offer ways to assuage them. No matter what strife or anguish shadows your path, I will seek to show ways to move beyond these feelings."

-The Camelot Oracle-


Elaine of Carbonek is the daughter of King Pelles, and keeper of the grail. It is in Carbonek that the grail resides, and there that Lancelot follows. Lancelot hears of what fate has befallen Elaine, who is stuck in a boiling cauldron. Morgan le Fey has trapped Elaine there, claiming that only the greatest knight could free her. When he hears this, Lancelot quickly rescues the young girl. Elaine is at once smitten by Lancelot, and falls deeply in love with him. King Pelles only furthers this love of his daughter's, wanting only the best knight to further protect the grail. Lancelot though, loves only Guinevere, and will not Elaine for a wife. Having been rejected, Elaine goes to the one person she thinks can solve this issue.

Brisen is Elaine's handmaiden, who happens to be somewhat of a sorceress. Using a potion, she convinces Lancelot that Elaine is really Guinevere. Upon seeing what he thinks is Guinevere, Lancelot quickly sleeps with Elaine. It isn't until the morning that Lancelot realizes the deception, but by then its too late. Elaine becomes with child, while Lancelot leaves the castle. It is this child of Lancelot's that will become the Knight and protector of the grail. For the moment though, Elaine is secluded within her castle, and raises the young Galahad. Soon after this, Elaine manages to go to Camelot. With Lancelot's child, Elaine suspects that Lancelot will love her, but she's sadly mistaken.

Once again though, Lancelot is tricked into sleeping with Elaine. This time however, Guinevere catches Lancelot with Elaine. Guinevere quickly revokes Lancelot, which causes him to go mad with grief. During this time, Lancelot wanders mad through the land. With no one to truly search for him, it is only by a miracle he stumbles to Elaine's garden. When she finds Lancelot is mad with grief, she takes him to the grail. This cures Lancelot, and he decides to stay with Elaine for some time. Years later though, Guinevere seeks out Lancelot. Upon hearing of her forgiveness, Lancelot takes off for Camelot. This time though, he takes a young Galahad with him. Galahad hopes to become a knight like his father. Elaine is left alone, with no one to love or to love her.

In practice, one may seem apprehensive to work with Elaine. She is neither good nor bad, but stays constantly in between.We have our judgments as to her actions, usually from our own experiences. It is easy to condemn her, but it is just as easy to defend her. Elaine is a woman who has known love, and yet knows what it is like not to be loved in return. A woman of purity, she is strongly loyal to the man she loves, even when he may not love her. She is also keeper of the grail, and therefore knows its secrets. This has led her to become known as the grail princess. Elaine is a King's daughter, but seems not to be treated as such. Her beauty is said to rival that of Guinevere, but goes unnoticed by the man she's smitten with.

As the mother of Galahad, one cannot help but wonder how she raised such a virtuous child. Worse though, is wondering how she ever watched him go. She knows great loss, and the pains that life can bring. As a mother though, she knows how to bring us comfort. In our path, she can be a great console in our times of need. While her methods may not always be virtuous, her intentions are good. Elaine is a loving daughter, while her father's intentions may be clouded with prophecies. It is up to the person, as to how Elaine presents herself. She can wear many faces, be many things, yet she remains a keeper of that which we seek on our journey. At some point, we must all encounter her for that knowledge.

With our craft, Elaine can be used to reveal our deepest secrets. She can be a healer, especially when it comes to the pain of loss. It is this loss that can help us see that we must move forward, and accept our fate. Her chastity though, can be a connection to any virgin goddess or any mother. Her healing powers transcend that of emotions, and extends into the depths of our heart. Elaine's essence can reveal even that which we do not want to face. She can become a source of strength in that moment, as she has been there before. Her garden is a place of solitude, and yet it brings with it an inner peace. It is this peace, and emotional fearlessness that we could all use a little piece of in our lives.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

D is for Danu

"So there, by the divine waters of Danu, from where those waters rose and flooded through the now fertile green valleys of the Earth, eastwards towards a distant sea, The Dagda and Brigid settled. And they called the great course of eastward rushing water after the Mother Goddess, which is Danuvius, whose children still know it as the mighty Danube."

-Celtic Myths and Legends-


The Goddess Danu is perhaps one of the more well known figures of the Celtic Pantheon. For many, Danu is the Mother Goddess. It is Danu that is the mother of Brigid, a bond so linked that in many traditions Danu disappeared altogether. Some believe Danu to be the oldest deity in Celtic circles. This is with good reason, as the root dan is Old Irish meaning knowledge. It is knowledge that is the essence of Danu, as the Celts believed all knowledge was found at the water's edge. More endearingly, the Celtic Gods, or the Tuatha De Danann are called, the Children of Danu. Some have come to incorporate Danu with the Goddesses Anu, and the Morrigan. One cannot escape the importance of Danu within the Celtic Pantheon is some way. 

My own journey with Danu happened quite early, as she was the first Goddess that I heard any myths about. I have to admit that at first, I was unaware of her affiliation with the Morrigan, or with the Goddess Brigid. At the time, I focused more of my efforts on learning about the Morrigan, because that was how I started on the path to a Celtic Pantheon. For awhile, I forgot completely about Danu, until coming across the Goddess Anu. While I posted about Anu before, she is an Earth Goddess, while Danu is a Water Goddess. The two go together quite well, but at the time I didn't see or realize that. Danu truly didn't come into importance for my journey, until I started to meditate for an aspect of the Goddess to guide me. 

While meditating, I saw a great river, though calm and quite peaceful. I sat at the edge of it, and simply watched the water flow by. After some time, I felt myself let go, and become immersed in this great river. The flow of the river led to a wooden clearing, though with a pool of water from the river. It was there that I was led, and there I rested. Such peace and calm had never been felt in my meditations before then, and I could have stayed in that moment for some time. In that circle, that pool of water, I saw a woman. All I could do was ask her name, and it was the Goddess Danu. With her name, came the understanding that all knowledge was linked to that place, and at the edge of the water. 

I had wanted to do a Pagan blog for some time, though I had no idea how to start. At the time, I didn't even have a name for it. Danu, and the legends of Danu, gave this blog its name. Soon, all the pieces began falling into place, and everything has worked out better than expected. Each time I write a new posting though, I am reminded of where the source of my knowledge comes from. It is a small, and yet powerful reminder of the presence Danu has in my path now. There are many aspects left to be revealed about Danu's nature, but the parts I do understand are wonderful. The aspect of Danu brings a comfort, which can only be likened to that of a mother's love. 

Though I had my spiritual guide for this path, I was unsure of how it all fit. As I said previously, I felt a strong pull towards the Goddess Anu instead. Not to mention, I felt a sense of loyalty to the Morrigan, which had started this journey in the first place. With trust, and a bit of time, things began falling into place though. Both Danu and Anu are linked to the Morrigan, though with different opinions or traditions. This caused a sense of ease and transition began to take place. I saw the picture as a whole, instead of just pieces of it. Learning to balance the influences of both Anu and Danu, gave me a better understanding of the path I wanted to walk. Anu is earth based, while Danu remains more water based. 

All of this has led to a deeper understanding of Goddess I didn't even know were out there. On this path, I'm learning that while the Morrigan may seem complex, all paths lead to one source. In forming this new Tradition, in blending Druidry, Celtic, and Arthurian paths, Danu makes all the more sense. It is knowledge that is at the heart of any path. The creativity and love sparked by Danu, is a driving influence for the knowledge I seek out in the future. I know, that wherever this path takes me, that Danu will somehow be an intimate part of it. The Celtic Legends speak of how Brigid returned to the edges of the Danube to teach the Tuatha De Danann all there was to know. So too, do I seek the water's edge, in search of all that is to be revealed.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

D is for Dindrane

"If the quest was hard for a man, imagine how much harder it was for a woman." 

-Camelot Oracle- 


Dindrane's character is almost tempting to forget, as little is actually known about her. The most well known fact about her is that she is the sister of Perceval. She was raised in almost complete seclusion, which echoes that of her brother's own upbringing. To the surprise of many however, Dindrane is the only woman to search for the holy grail. The fact she is the only woman to search for the grail, makes her character extremely important to the tale. Even while the Arthurian Legend depicts her death, her character's importance lives on throughout the legends. 

As the only female to actively seek out the grail, Dindrane is often known as the grail heroine. She is first introduced in a lonely hermitage, where Galahad has wandered. Interestingly, it is Dindrane, not Galahad that offers to join the quest. Without almost a word, Dindrane leads Galahad to a shore line, where Perceval and Bors are waiting. Soon, a ship arrives, without any crew aboard. Without too much delay, the group soon boards the ship, only to discover precious items for their quest. Interestingly, it is Dindrane and Galahad that have a major role to play in this event. 

While on board the Ship of Solomon, Galahad finds a sword. It is Dindrane that knows the sword's significance, and fulfill one of the prophecies. Taking her hair, gold thread, silk, and jewels, Dindrane makes a new belt for the sword. The Sword of the strange belt is later found to belong to none other than Galahad. It's religious significance in their quest being that such a sword belonged to King David, and then Solomon himself. Legend says that after finding these things, the group continued until they reached a castle. It was within this castle that Dindrane would fulfill her destiny. 

Having reached the castle, the custom demands a royal virgin maiden give a dish of her blood, in the hopes of healing the lady of the castle. Dindrane gives of her blood freely, however she discovers that she cannot stop bleeding. She soon dies, and yet the lady of the castle is healed by her sacrifice. The group soon buries her upon their return to Sarras. Having foreseen her destiny, Dindrane knows that she would go on to be buried beside her brother, and also Galahad. Throughout the tales, there is a strong connection to Galahad and Dindrane. In fact, it sometimes said that she knew more of Galahad's family than he did. 

The significance of Dindrane's character is symbolic of Christ. Not only does she sacrifice herself, but she is interestingly female. Many have called her a female Christ, though only in a sense of the Arthurian Legends. It is within the legends that one finds an almost contradictory equality between men and women. For Pagans, this isn't truly surprising. Dindrane could very well be a great symbol of the wisdom and power within a female. It wouldn't be until years later, that the Arthurian Legends became a mix of both Pagan and Christian tales. The fact Dindrane's character lived on despite the prejudices of a highly patriarchal religion, shows her true importance. 

For those of the Arthurian Tradition, Dindrane remains a symbol of feminine wisdom. She reminds us of what it means to be honest and true at heart. Her very nature is one that is said to evoke kindness, and teaches only love. The very willingness to sacrifice of herself wholeheartedly, can only inspire us to adhere to such a standard. As the only female to seek out the grail, she reminds us all that at some point we may stand out. It is in that moment that we may truly find our destiny. For those working with Dindrane's energies, it is the purest, simplest, and  yet most intelligent. The secrets of pursuing our own quests can come alive, as we seek out the grail heroine for ourselves. 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

C is for Cuchulain

"The story, I heard was that when this youth was attacked by the hound, he killed it. And while the warriors of Ulaidh were amazed by this feat, Cullan was sorrowful that his faithful hound had died for the safety of his house. The youth Setanta then offered to guard Cullan's house until such time as a hound whelp had been trained to take its sire's place. So Setanta became Cullan's hound - Cuchulain." 

- Celtic Myths and Legends- 


Cuchulain is an interesting character within Celtic Mythology, as his origins are quite unclear. Whether he is a god at all remains unclear, as his parents differ in many retellings. In some tellings, his mother is divine, and in others she is human. What can be agreed upon is the influence of the god Lugh, who is said to be a type of spiritual father to Cuchulain. To confuse the tale though, Cuchulain has a biological father, who is human. Still, in the tales Cuchulain is somehow divine himself. Part of all this confusion is no doubt due to the massive time span of these tales. Tales regarding Cuchulain date back prior to the seventh century, only then to be revived. It's an amazing thing that these tales survive today, in many different forms. 

Cuchulain is first introduced as Setanta, who famously kills one of Cullan's hounds. Offering to take its place, he earns the nickname Cuchulain or Hound of Ulster. A few years pass, and Cuchulain is a handsome youth, and the men around him begin to worry. The men convince him to accept a challenge to train under Scathach, who is a warrior and Goddess. Hoping the ordeal will be too much for Cuchulain, they see him off on this challenge. The tales of Cuchulain's training are many, and perhaps some of the best told about him. It was these first initial tales that I was introduced to his character, and I have been fond of him ever since. Though there are different versions, many of the events stay the same. 

Cuchulain reaches the Isle of Shadow, where the Goddess Scathach lives. Gaining entrance to her castle, which was no easy task, gave Cuchulain entrance to Scathach's academy. There he trained under the Goddess, and became a highly skilled warrior. Later, he returned to Ulster, and joined the Red Branch, a group of warriors. Cuchulain died young, fighting Queen Maeve of Connacht. Some say that Cuchulain failed to recognize Morrigan flying over him, and that is what lead to his death. With his life cut short, and his strong fighting abilities many have linked him with the likes of Achilles and Hercules. While many Celtic deities shared influences with Roman deities, there is no solid link between these tales.

For me, it is rare to find gods to relate to, and the ones that I do startle my awareness. For years, I focused on the gods Apollo, Mars, Ares, Eros, and Thanatos. Because most of the gods I've gotten to know in the past have been Roman or Greek, it's tough to switch to a new pantheon. What makes this transition easier, is being able to recognized equatable gods. While Cuchulain doesn't really have an equivalent, his father is still Lugh, God of light. Lugh is equivalent to the god Apollo, and one I have gotten to know quite well. As it happens Apollo was the first aspect of god that I worshipped and got to know in my path. This was became of his twin sister Artemis, who I related to greatly at the time. 

It seems wonderful to me, that the first god I was introduced to in Celtic mythology was Lugh. The familiar attributes were a welcome change. Perhaps this is why I enjoy getting to know Cuchulain. He has a mixture of both the god Ares and Apollo. Cuchulain is often linked to the sword and the spear, as is Ares, not to mention Cuchulain's fierceness in battle. The things I have gotten to know about Cuchulain are the playfulness of Apollo, and the passion of Ares. For me, the combination is almost one of pure enjoyment. Cuchulain isn't as prevalent in my life as many other god/desses, and it's that much better when he shows up. At times though, it's Setanta that shows up, before the burdens of life create a god out of a man. 

Cuchulain remains a symbol of perseverance, and shows us where our own strength lies. For me, some of the things Cuchllain has taught me lie in the nature of his aspect. Widely though, Cuchulain teaches the power of masculinity. He is symbolic of the power of the god within each of us, whether male or female. Cuchulain may appear a god, or a mortal man still yet to achieve his greatness. He was a lover of Fand, and yet a lover of Emer. A strong warrior, he still remained chivalrous and yet fierce. Cuchulain is the very son of Lugh, and no doubt his handsome is because of that great light within him. Whatever the path today, the light of Lugh and Cuchulain are sure to guide your path.






Thursday, January 30, 2014

C is for Camelot

"Don't ever let it be forgot, that once there was a spot, for one brief shining moment that was Camelot."

-Jacqueline Kennedy-


Camelot is a place of legend, a place where the round table dwells. As a place, Camelot is said to be somewhere in Briton, though no text specifies an exact location. Still, it is the legendary kingdom of King Arthur. It is Camelot that Knights gather along the round table, and form bonds said to be closer than any other. For all the grandeur though, Camelot was said to be a small place. Never having enough rooms for all, many legends hold stories of people in tents staying outside the city walls. Surely, Camelot was a place people wanted to stay and dwell.

In my path, Camelot has come to represent the place of the round table. It is the round table that stands for things such as justice, chivalry, and seeking. Out of all the things that the round table could stand for though, it also represents opportunity. The meetings at the round table were said to be wonderful, joyous, and even merry occasions. Even when there were said to be 150 Knights, legends arise of true friendship. Still though, Camelot reminds us all of our mortality. Camelot itself came to an end, just as the Knights could not live forever. It is the natural cycle of the God/dess that all must come to an end, only to be reborn. Often, things are reborn in the ways we least expect.

I could never do Camelot justice without mentioning President Kennedy. It seems strange that the topics of a Pagan blog would lead to a Catholic President. Still, roads cross at the least expected time and place. The Kennedy family found a fondness to the image of Camelot. Whether this was due to John F. Kennedy's favor of Arthurian Legends or not, remains uncertain. There remains still, a little fondness of the White House during this Camelot era. Surely, many would agree that Kennedy was progressive and could have continued to do a great many things. Perhaps that is what Camelot stands for, the potential to do a great many things that one for whatever reason cannot.

The linking between President Kennedy and King Arthur, at first, seemed silly. Arthur was a King, who accomplished great things, and created peace within his land. Looking at things now though, John F. Kennedy might fit that. Considering he led a country, who led others to accomplish great things within their daily lives, and who politically found a way to balance patriotism with peace. These things may seem like they don't belong on a Pagan blog, but to me, it's at the heart of what makes Paganism register with people. Pagans wish to find a sense of peace, a sense of understanding others, and accomplish the great joys that the God/dess can offer. There's always going to be our own visions of Camelot.

Visions of Camelot may look different person to person, and the legends reflect this. Camelot has changed from a mighty castle, to a simple kingdom. The change might not seem legendary, but the basis of it is. If those of us in the United States can look out and see our own Camelot, than many others can as well. Though Camelot is a place, it is also a symbol. It stands for things that undoubtedly are a reflection of those bonds of the true friendships we form. Not only do we form friendships that last our lifetime, but they can go on to spark bonds in another lifetime. Places live on in the spirit of the people, only then can a place truly exist. For those who wish to see it, Camelot may truly be a thought away.

Whether we wish to imagine a Camelot with King Arthur, or one with a President, Camelot remains. The origins of such a place may be unknown, and we may never glimpse a sight of the first Camelot. Still though, as hard as it may seem, Camelot can be created again. When Camelot is created again though, it will look very differently. There will be the same mystery, wonder, and camaraderie, but there will be the spark of a new time. It is the nature of the God/dess, that things be reborn. Life continues, and with it the places that we all hold dear. With time all things pass away, and are reborn again in their own time.

Friday, January 24, 2014

B is for Badb


"Nothing in the universe remains stagnant; everything is constantly changing, moving around the wheel of life. Without death, there can be no rebirth. I am the deathblow and the midwife of the soul. It is to I you will come at this life's end, and it is through me that you shall be reborn."

-Celtic Lore and Spellcraft of the Dark Goddess-

Rebirth is something that I've always felt closely connected to. Even growing up with the Christian concept of eternal life, I still felt oddly drawn to the aspect of rebirth. For me, it seemed like a natural progression of life, even if that meant death was a part of it. Up until this point, I was never introduced to the Morrigan, much less the aspects of such a deity. As many Pagans, I knew the aspects of the Triple Goddess, and I've worked with them frequently. Badb however, is different than most concepts of the Triple Goddess. Getting to know the aspect of Badb has been challenging, and yet very rewarding.

Badb is both the Maiden, and the Crone aspect of the Goddess. When getting to know any aspect of the Morrigan, this can be quiet confusing. As I mentioned in another post, Anu is the Virgin Goddess of the Morrigan, while Macha remains associated with death. This causes an interesting mixture of elements, where life of the Maiden is celebrated so closely with the Crone. When I first started getting to know this aspect, it was that concept that most appealed to me. Invoking an aspect of death into daily life often seems ill advised, and so the transition was made easier focusing on the rebirth aspect of it all.

The Crone aspect of Badb though, cannot be missed. Badb  is pictured as a fair lady, though white and red mouthed. In later tales, Badb was a phantom all together. Without digging too far into it, I suspect that Badb is fair, because the Maiden aspect of the Goddess is fair. What I did find though, is that Badb, being connected with death, took on many of death's appearances. Her pale white skin, is often because white was later connected to death. Where many of us in the United States are accustomed to black being the color of death, white is still that color for many other cultures across the world.

For me, it would seem obvious had such an aspect entered my life early. It wasn't until further study however. that I discovered Badb had been there all along too. When I was young, I had an affinity for wolves. That spiritual connection to wolves later opened many of the doors for me now, but at the time I didn't think anything of it. Badb is strongly connected to wolves, and so now I welcome that aspect of her into my life more openly. It wasn't until middle school though, that I was introduced to Badb's true nature, the Crone. The Banshee is perhaps one of the strongest aspects of Badb's nature, and one that I feared into my teenage years.

As I grew to know what it meant to be Pagan, and specifically Wiccan, the Crone aspect no longer frightened me. I don't remember when I fully embraced death as a part of life, but it was shortly before my choice to become Pagan in general. In fact, one of the last aspects of Badb was important to me starting out my practice. I was apprehensive to come out as a Pagan, and so my altar and tools consisted of a couple candles, and a deck of tarot cards. For the first few years, acts of divination were the only ways I felt close to the One. As I matured as a Pagan, tarot cards found a place on my altar. I wouldn't trade my first deck of tarot cards for all the other tools in the world.

Looking back, the presence of Badb has always been there. There are even some aspects of Badb that I wouldn't trade for the world. Whether one chooses to look at her as the Maiden, or the Crone, I think there is a part of her that everyone meets. I think there is something special about considering Badb as the Midwife of the Soul. Badb is said to be keeper of a cauldron, much like any other aspect of the Morrigan. For Badb, it is the cauldron of the Otherworld. She offers us rest for a time, and then sets us on our path once more. It is her life giving force that makes her perhaps, one of the brighter aspects of the Morrigan.

B is for Bercilak

   
"As well as the Green Chapel where he exists as the Green Knight, Bercilak the man lives in the castle of Hautdesert, hidden away in a tree lined hollow"

- The Camelot Oracle-

Interesting characters are found throughout the Arthurian Tradition, and Bercilak is no exception. Bercilak's character can be found in the tales of Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. These tales can be a bit confusing, as there are by now many different versions. As confusing as this is, the general tale remains the same. For the sake of accuracy, I'm going to do my best to focus on what is the agreed upon view. With that said, I do believe the very nature of Bercilak's character is to invoke a sense of mystery. Hopefully, some of that mystery can be revealed by what I've learned so far.

Bercilak's character is first seen by King Arthur's court on Christmas, said to be holding holly in one hand and a battle axe in the other. He is the Green Knight, transformed by Morgaine le Fey, in order to challenge the court. To further the mystery, Bercilak engages in a battle agreement with King Arthur and his court. The agreement is a blow for blow exchange, and Gawain is the only member of the court to accept. With a single blow, Gawain decapitates the strange guest. Because of Morgaine's enchantment however, Bercilak simply picks up his head. Gawain is then asked to meet Bercilak the next year for the return blow. 

Sure enough, Gawain travels to the Green Chapel, and finds Bercilak's wife awaiting him. Though the Lady Bercilak appears always with an old woman, Gawain finds her company pleasant. It is then that the Lady Bercilak tempts Gawain, and earns three kisses in exchange for a green sash. This sash protects Gawain from the blows of the Green Knight. The first two blows are merely a stunt to test his courage, and the third blow leaves only a minor wound. After the third blow, Bercilak reveals himself. Gawain is informed by him of the true tests of his loyalty and bravery carried out by Morgaine le Fey, who had transformed herself into the old woman. The tale ends with Gawain's return back to court, and the men wearing green sashes in his honor.

These tales may seem to have nothing to do with modern craft today. With a little study though, we see not just one theme but many. I should mention that some people find Christian themes in these stories as well, however I'm not going to focus solely on those. The first theme is that of Morgaine le Fey. In these tales, she represents the Goddess. It is she who challenges the Knights at Camelot. While not always the case, in many tales she is also ever present during the tests that Gawain must go through. This may be symbolic of how the Goddess is ever present in our own lives. It is through the Goddess that all at Camelot come to know a bit of the ancient mysteries. 

The ancient mysteries could never be known without Bercilak's character. He is outright a symbol of the God. His green color also suggests a high symbolism to nature. There is always that hint of fear with his presence, and yet there is also an opportunity for courage. For Gawain, it is this opportunity alone that reveals the Goddess to him. In that, there is also the symbolism that one cannot know the Goddess without first knowing the God. In either case, all is revealed in its own way. Bercilak's wife is also an interesting character, as her behavior is opposite for its time. She in a way, represents the sexual side of the Goddess. Her character remembers that at one time sexual behavior was not thought of sinfully, but freely. 

The thing that I find to be the greatest thing about the character of Bercilak is his versatility. Tales are repeated many times, but never has one reached Pagans and Christians in such a unique way. The elements stand alone, and go noticed by both groups of people. This is what, I think, made Bercilak last through the ages. His character is still speaking to us, and revealing the mysteries of the God/dess. For my own path, his character speaks of what the culture of the Celts became. The unity of both Pagan and Christian views was central to the legends of King Arthur, and so too became the history of the people of Briton. A history that simply cannot be told without revealing the secrets of the God/dess.


Friday, January 10, 2014

A is for Anu

"All things grow and change in their own time. Be as the tree, deeply rooted in the earth, yet ever reaching toward the heavens. In winter the tree may lose its leaves and sleep for a time, but the tree knows spring will always come again and bring new beginnings and growth."

-Celtic Lore & Spellcraft of the Dark Goddess-

While not directly linked to the Arthurian Tradition, the Goddess Anu is present. One might have to search for the deep symbolism, and yet its still there. The Morrigan is ever present in the character of Morgaine le Fey. Some believe that Morgaine's strong connection to magic within the tales makes this connection. Whatever the case may be, The Morrigan is deeply rooted in the Celtic belief and folklore. The Morrigan consists of a triad of goddesses, and is always referred to as The Morrigan, when a whole. As a symbol of the Triple Goddess, there are the goddesses Anu, Badb, and Macha. The Goddess Anu remains one of the most well known and sacred goddesses of the Celtic Tradition and the triad. .

Anu is the Virgin Goddess within the triad, and as such is associated with the earth itself. Ireland was at times referred to as the Land of Anu, The Paps of Anu reflect this, as they remain some of the only proof left of the goddess's importance. While her name means plenty or wealth, there is a lack of traditions left to reveal the goddess's secrets. What we do know is that Anu was a goddess of fertility, and linked to the crops and cattle of the land. In some regions, Anu was known as one of the daughters of Ernmas, a she farmer. It's interesting to note that Anu is said to be one of three daughters, perhaps furthering that she is a Triple Goddess aspect. Though there are three goddesses, their names remain the same.

The earth itself is a link to Anu, no matter where one is. She is pictured with soil colored eyes, and clothes as green as the plants. Often she is pictured under an age old tree, a symbol of herself. A parallel can be made to the  character of Morgaine le Fey here as well. Anu is said to find apples as sacred to her, and so the tree depicted with her is often that of an apple tree. Morgaine's character is linked to Avalon, which is known too as the Isle of Apples. Both are said to be the keeper of a cauldron, a cauldron that reveals to those who drink from it the very future. It's said that if you meditate and seek the Goddess Anu, you will find her there among the apple trees, stirring her great cauldron that perhaps sustains all life.

For myself, the Goddess Anu came into my life only recently. While reading about Druidry, some books suggested taking a teacher. This teacher was to be a goddess and a god, and each were to stem from Celtic origins. At first this seemed easy to me, as The Morrigan first came to mind. It was The Morrigan that started this shift for me, and also was the inspiration for the name I go by in Pagan circles. Not wanting to jump to conclusions, I read more about the Celtic god/desses. To my surprise, I started to feel a strong connection to the Goddess Danu. This caused a great problem for me, as I felt loyal to both The Morrigan and Danu. Seeking more advice, I sat down and meditated.

As I meditated, I began to picture a great river. I walked to it, and sat on the water's very surface. It was then I began to feel attached to the water, felt myself anchored by roots that went deep into the earth. There was a peace there, and I looked across into the woods beyond. There was Anu, stirring the great cauldron, only I didn't know her as Anu. It wasn't until I drank from the cauldron that Anu's name came into my mind. That had been the last of the meditation, a meditation that seemed like days. After that, I quickly took to reading more of the books I had purchased on Celtic beliefs in general.

In one of them, I found Anu's name, which linked her not only to the Morrigan, but to Danu as well. While Danu is a river goddess, Anu is linked to the earth. It became clear for me that was the element I work with most, and so the aspect made sense. I've learned that while we may want certain teachers along our path, the ones that come to us reveal themselves for a reason. Worshiping one aspect of The Morrigan doesn't take away from the wonder of the whole. Sitting, on the cold earth that will be warm come summer, also reminds me that Danu is there too, in the heart of Anu. For the roots that reach deep, drink from the sacred spring that nurtures all life, the water of Danu.

Friday, January 3, 2014

A is for Arthurian

"Listen, strange women lying in ponds, distributing swords, is no basis for a system of government."
     -Monty Python and the Holy Grail- 

One might begin to wonder what Monty Python has to do with a blog like this, and you're right to wonder. For me though, that quote was my first introduction to King Arthur. It wouldn't be until many years later that such a line even made sense to me. I didn't know who the Lady of the Lake was, or why Excalibur was so important, or even what government they were truly talking about. All I knew was that I loved history, literature, and movies. Now I look back and can laugh at the ignorance of my childhood. As strange as it may sound, I've become familiar with the Arthurian Legends and incorporated them into my own Pagan traditions. 

The Arthurian Tradition, within Paganism, uses the myths and legends of King Arthur to relate to the divine. That's the least complicated definition I could think of, hopefully it works. My introduction to this tradition started with a set of oracle cards I purchased. In the Camelot Oracle, the author, John Matthews, explains how each of the characters relates to an aspect of life. The book also suggests ways of meditating with each character from the myth, and so this was my first real way of incorporating the Arthurian Tradition into my own practice. I was surprised to find that to me, it didn't seem strange to work with "fictional" characters. 

I felt spiritually at ease with these characters, especially those of The Lady of the Lake, Morgana, Lancelot, and Arthur. Such an ease prompted me to do more research into this tradition, and I sadly found little. I did find out many interesting historical facts though, which surprised me quite a bit. It brought up an interesting point too, the line between legend and truth are so blurred it might make little difference. I learned that I even prefer to think in terms of the mystical. A place like Avalon could exist, and it could indeed be the resting place of not only King Arthur, but many other legendary heroes, rulers, and god/desses as well. 

In Celtic lore, it is said that sometimes a god sleeps. He waits to be awakened, and one day bring knowledge, power, and relief to his followers. This god is often called The Sleeping God, and I have yet to find such an attribute placed on a goddess. Occasionally, this aspect stems to heroes so great, they become as powerful as the gods, in the eyes of the people. King Arthur is one of those people, he is said to sleep in Avalon. With his sleep is the promise that one day he will return, and unite us all. Such a legend seems unlikely, but it brings for me, a special magikal element to this tradition. 

To add perhaps a new spin to the Arthurian Legends, is the subject of Fionn MacCumhal. When it comes to Irish lore Fionn MacCumhal is parallel to that of King Arthur. In fact, some believe it is Arthur that was used to incorporate Celtic gods to a broad Christian audience. It is Fionn that is credited with destroying all the snakes in Ireland, well before Saint Patrick. Besides the parallels to Arthur's direct adventures, Fionn is the bringer of knowledge and wisdom to the people he rules over. Personally, I'm quite fond of the stories of Fionn MacCumhal. They resonate with me, and they are but a step of this growing process.

For fear of rambling too much, I will conclude by saying that the Arthurian Tradition is vast. While there may be a lack of agreed upon facts, the legends live on. The characters call out to us, sharing with us their own ancient knowledge. Whether this knowledge is to be taken at face value, or is purely symbolic, remains for the listener to decide. What I have come to know is the purity of this ancient knowledge. I have learned that all stories are connected, even spanning into the religious walks of others. It is in that moment that we may all come to share in the magik circle, perhaps even in the shadows of Avalon. 

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Solitary Eclectic Wiccan

My path has many labels, and can be a bit complicated to explain briefly to others. This is mainly because I don't get asked many questions about it. I'm just going to try my best to explain what I can, and I might add to it later. In short, I'm a Solitary Eclectic Wiccan. That being said, I prefer to label myself as Pagan. Over the years that has been the label I feel most proud of, yet even I am not sure why. This path is the one that feels right for me, and I embrace that it might not be right for others.

Before becoming a Pagan, I was raised in a conservative Baptist church. As a kid, I loved going to church, reading my bible, and even the daily bible studies. My parents had each been raised Christian, though were of different denominations. Perhaps that's why they raised me to be Baptist, as the church was just down the road and new to both of them. Whatever the case, I was deeply devoted to my faith. My first job was working at a Christian based summer camp, and I have fond memories of those weeks. As I matured though, my religious beliefs began to shape, and I found my current path.

At thirteen, I began to embrace Wicca as a religious path. When my views of Christianity changed, I had started searching for a path, any path, that fit. Wicca's belief about God/ddess appealed to me,as well as those about nature, and so I kept doing more research into it. I discovered that many traditions believed a year of study was necessary, and so I spent that year really trying to learn all I could. There was always an uncertainty, because I was Solitary, that I was somehow doing it wrong. That first year was really eye opening, and I started to really listen to my own self for the first time in my life.

After that first year, I felt it necessary to do a year of observance. This meant that I would observe The Wheel of the Year, and keep my altar for each of the sabbats. Most importantly, it meant that I would not engage in any other magik based ritual. It was important to me that first year to listen to the God/dess, and grow before taking to spellcraft. To this day, I'm thankful for the lessons I learn by those two years. Those first years gave me much of the information, experience, and courage to continue my path now. After those two years, I performed my initiation ritual and felt comfortable calling myself Wiccan.

For me, that was the start of my path, and it's been eight years. There are times where I faltered, and wondered if it was the right path. It felt lonely at first, as I live in a small community where Pagans of any kind are rare. Slowly though, I've grown to realize that faltering is all part of the natural process. Soon I was learning where to find a sense of community. It wasn't all easy, there were always people who didn't understand, and some were in my own family. I was labelled a wytch, but chose to grow into the title. Now, the title of wytch is one of my most fond.

Lately, I've been going through another change on my path. For most of my path, I have followed a Greek/Roman pantheon. I've borrowed traditions from many paths, but always have I held true to that pantheon. Now however, I've chosen to embrace a Celtic pantheon. There are plenty of things to embrace within that change alone, but I'm also trying to become a Green Wytch as well. These two changes are going to be the subject of this blog, but I thought I'd just give a little introduction to where my path stands now. Either way, I look forward to learning, embracing, and practicing new ideas.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

A New Year

For many, 2014 marks the beginning of many new chapters. One looks back at the year 2013, perhaps wondering where the time has suddenly gone. There are no doubt lasting memories, and with them the promise of the future. A future promises hope, a fresh start, and yet not all things end with the passing of the year. We still bring with us the thoughts we've gathered, the paths we've walked, and the friends we've gained. A part of this has led me to start this blog now, and hopefully to continue you it into the next new year. I've started a few blogs, but this is to be the one I dedicate my efforts in 2014 to.

I started this new year with a desire to learn all I could on the Celts. This has started with their mythology, and hopefully will advance far beyond. To start though, I have always found mythology a good a place as any. Being of the family heritage I am, I have always had a fascination with mythology, legends, or anything of the sort. I never suspected that the mythology I read as a child, would come to impact my religious choice as an adult. The Celts have many different gods and goddess, and at first I hesitated. It was overwhelming, but I soon decided to jump in somewhere.

This blog's name comes from the knowledge that I've gathered so far. I thought to name this blog after The Morrigan, but that is not completely the case. Out of all the stories, it is one of Danu that I read first. The Goddess Danu, is said to be a giver of all knowledge. As the mother of Brigid, Danu is someone I instantly could feel ties to. It helped me to know how a few things tied into the path I already had, and Brigid's name was one of them. There was a welcome feeling, perhaps that of a mother. Learning a very brief history of the impact Danu had within Celtic culture, I feel at ease to use some of it now.

At The Water's Edge is a blog to capture my path as a Pagan in 2014. For it is said that all knowledge came from the water's edge. The water was a symbol of Danu, and her nourishment to her children. As I start the new year, on a path somewhat new to my feet, it is this nourishment I need. It is my hope though, that someday we all might find a place at the water's edge. That one day, we may all take a glance in the ancient mirror, and see for ourselves the mysteries of the universe. I know not where this path leads, only that it feels right, right at the water's loving edge.